AshleyFeb 19, 20212 min read10. Melancholy suits me. We cannot leave that which breaks our hearts. Will I ever stop wearing melancholy? Will it ever stop suiting me?...
AshleyFeb 18, 20212 min read9. Your gray jacket. I bought it for you because the rest of your clothes had become too big. You were cold all the time and needed...
AshleyFeb 18, 20212 min read8.I just got back from the doctors. My appointment was at the same hospital my mom had to go to. I felt anxious the whole way there. I...
AshleyFeb 18, 20211 min read7. Found Poetry: Experiment with looking at the sky The more ways you look, the more you'll see To live with the awareness of a presence But...
AshleyFeb 16, 20212 min read6. Offering kindness to my grief would look like me curling it up on my lap to be held, warmed, and cocooned. To be kind to my sad self...
AshleyFeb 15, 20212 min read5. She is a face that comes forward amongst the dark colors. She stretches out her neck to speak to me. "Shhh.." she says. "I'm here to talk...
AshleyFeb 14, 20211 min read4. It's 11am on a Tuesday Have you taken all the meds I'm supposed to give you? Are any helping the pain? Nothing really works that well I...
AshleyFeb 12, 20212 min read3. Before I was living in color. Now it's in black and white. The landscape is marked into the time before, and the time after. The...
AshleyFeb 12, 20212 min read2. Grief and love and loss are layered. They inform one another. Grief is love. What doesn't show is the pain. It's even physical pain at...
Ashley Feb 11, 20213 min read1.The person I used to be was rushed. Busy. Indignant about things that actually sometimes don't really matter. I was innocent. Innocent to...