I feel how much love I have for you and I will try to work towards holding that same amount of love for myself. I know you would want me...

I still can't believe it. I still can't believe that it all happened. And so fast. What felt like so fast. You hear stories like these,...

I want to make sure the world can see the shape of you in me. I am going to meet new people that will never be able to get to know you. I...

Rearrangement of my own words: I watched my mother's body become overtaken by cancer. I was helpless. And powerless. I've never felt such...

Thank you for showing yourself to me. I know you are always with me. I know because you told me. Now I know, without doubt, that you are...

Going through the pictures to make the video for your funeral...I could see from all of the photos just how much you loved us. I felt...

There have been moments. There have been moments when I felt you were here, but differently. You told me from the other side, "Believe...

You would hug me, and tell me it's okay to cry as much as I need to. You would bear witness to my pain in a way no one else can. If you...

What happened after you died? Did you float up above your body? Were you watching us all from above? Did all of your pain stop? What does...

I remember the crabapple tree in our front yard. Was it a crabapple? That's something that I could have easily asked you before, now it's...

What will happen on that first day where the loss isn't the first thing I think about? What will that feel like? Do I feel afraid of that...

I want to remember your voice. I want to hold on to your laugh. I want to remember your genius, quick humor. I want to remember the...

May you... Be gentle with yourself Make space for the pain Keep talking about them Share memories with others, and hold them close to...

Tiny spaces where things loosen... I don't feel these I can't find them Are they there? I feel my jaw clenched I notice it throughout the...

Is my heart broken? Yes. When I think about the heart, I think about how yours stopped. I was holding your hand. And then I had my hand...

So far, it has become more clear to me the depths of my emotions. I know them because I have felt and am feeling them. But to write and...

I would take you back to the beach We would walk along the water's edge Like we used to do We would sit on those rocks And listen to the...

Why don't we wear black anymore when we're mourning? Would I do it if we did? Do we all just want to pretend that there aren't people...

Sometimes when I feel the swell coming and I get a lump in my throat and wetness forms at my eyes - I tell myself to stop. Sometimes I...

I have your writing on the inside of my wrist now. "LyLy" is forever on my body, reminding me that you are always with me. You used to...