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I want to make sure the world can see the shape of you in me. I am going to meet new people that will never be able to get to know you. I want them to be able to see who you were, by seeing and getting to know me. Even though you are invisible, you are there. Your being and life has left an imprint on my soul, and I want the universe to see it. How can I ensure that others will learn more about who you were through me? I want to live my life like you lived yours. I want to remain curious, and courageous. I want to keep always asking questions, and knowing sometimes there's no answers. I once told you, "the entire universe can't contain the love I have for you". I think that tells others so much about the person you were. You are. I want your presence to live on. I want to pick up the torch and carry on where you left off. I want people to see you in my kindness, my giving of love, and my willingness to be vulnerable. I want to do all of those things, more often, not only for myself, but so that people can see what you were like. Now that others don't have a reference, a physical presence, your being and your spirit are what shines through. All of those invisible gifts shed light onto the kind of person you were, and I don't want that to be forgotten. You really did leave a legacy behind, and if not for myself, at least for you, I don't want that flow of energy to end. I hope to live out my life in a way that honors you. That honors your spirit, your gifts, and your love. I hope to be committed to shining light on the person that you were though the way I live my life. I'd like to honor you in that way. I miss you so much but by doing this I can feel closer to you. I can remember what it was like when you were here, and I hold on to all that love that is there. I miss you mama, but I know you are out there and all around me.