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Thank you for showing yourself to me. I know you are always with me. I know because you told me. Now I know, without doubt, that you are here. You are here, around me. There is no other way to explain it. You showed me, so clearly, that you are here. You are with me. It means so much to hear that you are proud of me. It meant so much to hear all that you said to me. Now, I have no more doubts. Like you said, "believe". There is nothing now that I will doubt. When I have that feeling, that knowing, that sense, I know it is you. You have shown me that it is. You impacted my life in so many wonderful ways while you were here. Your way of mothering, loving - all of it is so meaningful. And you now have continued to impact my life in extraordinary ways, even from the other side. In ways that couldn't have been done in this dimension. I know your spirit, your presence, is all around. It brings me a lot of peace. I won't lie, there is also a sadness that exists with this peace. When I felt you, it reminded me so much of when you were still here and it felt so familiar. It gave me comfort but it also reminded me of the reality that your physical presence isn't here anymore. It was so wonderful to feel you around me, and at the same time it reminded me how that's how it used to be all the time. It's two things at once - beautiful and sad. Both of those can be true at the same time. It's beautiful and it's sad, and I'm so grateful for the experiences and moments you've been giving me. You have supported me throughout my life and you are still doing it now, from the other side. I know that you are an angel. I know all of the work you did and sacrifices you made were for all of us. And I won't let all of that be for nothing. Like I told you, you laid the groundwork for me, and it's up to me to keep carrying on all of the work that you started and did. Thank you for all of it. I love you so much. Your love and sacrifices have already taught me so much. You really were an angel on earth. I miss your presence so much, but I know now, without question, that you are always with me. Thank you for sharing this lesson with me. I love you so much mama.